A 90s Office Worker’s Awakening to Life’s Realities

A 90s Office Worker’s Awakening to Life’s Realities

Hello everyone, My name is Euginne, and I am a typical post-90s, Malaysian labourer. I come from an ordinary single-parent family, without a notable family background, impressive education, or dramatic experiences. Besides having a face that seems to make it easy for people to open up to me, all I have left are these hands that can share stories with you.

Just to give you an idea of who I am: I like to depend on others, have no opinions of my own, and lack patience. I’ve always been a nine-to-five worker, wanting to escape my predicament but too scared to take any step. With only an 11-year compulsory education diploma, I couldn’t find a direction and switched jobs several times due to educational qualifications, unable to compete for a higher salary.

Like most people, I wanted to find shortcuts. I’ve tried micro-business and attended direct sales courses. There was a time when I thought highly of myself, but deep down, I was insecure. I’ve always felt worthless and believed my future would be a continuous struggle at the bottom of society.

Up until a lucky break in 2022, when I boldly sent my resume to Singapore just as I had hastily ended a toxic marriage and wanted to leave my then-predicament. Without any expectations, surprisingly, I was hired, and within a month, I packed up my mood and started working as a Malaysian labourer in Singapore.

Breaking through is necessary to see more. Adapting to the life trajectory of an unfamiliar country was a rebirth for me. Far from my native family and previous life, I gradually adapted here, learned to be alone and self-reliant, and discovered more of my shortcomings.

Without education or skills, one faces survival of the fittest in any city, and I am one of them. If I lacked self-awareness before, now I am fully awake. To climb up, one must adapt to the law of the jungle in society.

What completely changed my old thoughts and regained my confidence, besides the workplace, was Elaine. By chance, we started chatting on our phones, found common ground, and grew closer. Being a foreigner, plus the harsh realities of society, made me realise my insignificance; I felt adrift.

But Elaine is a very insightful person; she gave me a lot of advice. Through her, I recognised my true self and am now working hard to improve my education. It’s an opportunity to reshuffle my mindset.

Once a person has a clear goal, their mind becomes steady, especially as I keep receiving positive energy. I experienced Elaine as lifting my thoughts during the days I spoke with her. So one day, during our chat, we clicked and decided to start a blog together.

The initial intention of starting the MyVoice blog was because of Elaine. We both have NFJ personalities, and we always come across or meet many people with stories. From unknown ordinary people to successful entrepreneurs, each person has their own unique experiences and stories.

We both hope to convey these stories through our words, letting every reader know that every ordinary person is making their way to the extraordinary, step by step, to meet their initial aspirations at their peak.

To hear more stories, be sure to stay tuned to MyVoice. Perhaps you will also find your lost initial aspirations in the words.

一个·90年代上班族对生活现实的觉醒

大家好，我叫Euginne，一个平平无奇的90后马劳。 我来自普通的单亲家庭，没有显赫家世，没有厉害的学历，更没有跌宕起伏的经历。除了长得一副容易让人对我交心的脸，大概就剩这双可以把故事都分享给你们看的手了。 浅说一下我这个人，喜欢依赖别人，没有主见，没有耐心。一直都是朝九晚五的上班族，想摆脱困境但是却不敢踏出任何一步。拿着11年义务教育的文凭找不到方向，辗转换过几份工作都是因为学历问题而没办法竞争更高的薪水。 我跟大部分人一样，都想走捷径。

为此我干过微商，也进过直销上课。曾经我自命不凡过，但是内心深处是自卑的，我一直觉得自己没有价值，未来也只能继续在社会低层挣扎求存。 直到2022年一次因缘巧合受到朋友的鼓舞，当时我才潦草地结束了一段不健康地婚姻关系，想摆脱当时的困境，于是就胆粗粗把简历投去新加坡。本来是不抱任何希望的，没想到对方很爽快地请了我，于是我在一个月内就收拾心情开始当起了马劳。 人需要突破，才能看清更多。

在一个不熟悉的国家去适应他们的生活轨迹，对我来说是一次重生。远离了原生家庭和之前的生活，我在这边逐渐适应之后，我学会独处，学习自洽，也发现更多自己的不足。 没有学历，没有手艺，在任何一个城市发展都会面临优胜劣汰。而我，会是其中一个。如果说，以前的我没有自知之明，那么现在的我，算是幡然醒悟。 想往上爬，就得适应社会上的丛林法则。

让我彻底改变旧有想法，重拾自信不再迷茫的，除了职场，还有Elaine。 一次巧合下，我们隔着手机聊天，找到了彼此的共同点，也使我们的联系更紧密了。人在异乡，加上社会的真相让我愈发明白自己的渺小，我感觉自己仍在漂浮。 但是Elaine是个思想很活络的人，他给了我不少意见。而我也透过她，认识到了真正的自己，目前在努力读书提升自己。 给自己的思维一次重新洗牌的机会。

人一旦有了明确的目标，心就开始定了，再加上我一直不断获得好的能量。在跟Elaine聊天的这些日子，我感觉自己思想被她带动起来了。于是在某一天的聊天的时候，我们两个一拍即合，决定一起经营部落格。 会开始经营MyVoice部落格的初衷是因为Elaine，我们都是NFJ人格，身边总会围绕或者遇到很多有故事的人。从默默无名的普通人，到那些成功的企业家，每个人都有他们的专属自己的经历和故事。 我们两个希望透过文字给大家传递这些故事，让每一个看故事的你们都知道每一个平凡的人都是一步一脚印的走向不平凡，站在顶峰与自己的初心相见。 想看更多的故事，一定要留守MyVoice，也许你也能从只字片语里面找到自己遗失了的初心。